My poor boy has managed to break his thumb whilst playing rugby and is now banned from taking part in any sporting activity for a good 3 months, which for a sporty boy is a very long time! Feel really sorry for him, although he is excited at being unable to do Textiles at school lol!
Broken thumb meant two trips to hospital, and he and I had a real bonding time both times while we were waiting for him to be seen, giggled like school children (he is one so that is fine, I am not but that is still fine as we had so much fun), chatted for hours about all and nothing and had a real nice mother-son time despite the pain he was in. And as he is unable to go out and about on his scooter any more for a few months loads more hours of bonding. He is an amazing son and I am looking forward to it.
Focusing on the positive: only 2 days of feeling crap, which was last weekend, but aside from that had a good week. Feel particularly cheerful and full of beans today, been on a high, so I am a happy bunny. I now need to keep this up for another 2 weeks as Mr T. is not there next week so I need to survive 2 weeks with no therapy as opposed to just one week. Still, no rest for the wicked as he has given me even more homework!! Like being back at school really, without the detention thank goodness. New homework includes my toughest challenge yet as it involves dealing with Ma and Pa
My darling argumentative parents are over soon and I have loads to do:
1- make note of when they are NOT arguing and shouting and not slagging each other off. (Mr T will be surprised by how little that happens. I think he set me this task to prove to me that they may not argue as much as I think they do. Be interesting process. I might need to excuse myself every few hours to write in book "3.55 to 4.00 - no arguing". ha ha ha, la la la. we shall see the outcome.
2- when Ma and Pa, separately, use me to let rip about the other one ("your father blah blah blah" "your mother blah blah stupid blah blah") I have to try and speak to them about this and ask them not do this as I find it incredibly hurtful. And I had to give Mr T the likelihood of me plucking up the courage and doing this. Told him only 40% of me doing this. God, I am such a wimp.
3- find other way of rebelling against them, ie other than binge eating. So when they row, or confide in me how annoying the other one is, or have a pop at me about my weight, my children etc.. : instead of going to my room with pre-stashed food and stuffing myself silly or nipping out to shop to get biscuits and other junk food... MUSTN'T DO THIS. .....HOWEVER: I AM ALLOWED TO REBEL!! got to do it in other ways though. And so far I have only agreed one with Mr T and I need to think of others. The only one being lying where I am off to: so if they argue in the morning I can say I am going to tea at friend when in fact I am of to aerobics class. the rebelling being the lying.
Might need friends to have a moan to when Ma and Pa are over. And blogging. oooohhh that's a point, something else to lie to them about: "i have work to do" when in fact I am blogging.
Amazed that Mr T is allowing me to rebel. Thought I would be asked to forgive them etc.. Just show you should never assume things..
Determined to carry on enjoying the coming days, if not I shall go through my therapy note again and again.
It is so nice to have "good days" and feel good and going through more that 1 day of no name calling is amazing.
I love my children to bits, I love my hubby to bits.
for you three I am doing this. For you three I will get myself sorted. For you three I will get a sane mind. For your three I will get fit.
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