Back from hols, back to reality, and new beginnings

Back from fabulous holiday in Ireland, lack of sun and chill didn't stop the fun, the relaxation and the activities. And amazingly, and most unusually for me after holiday, no weight gain, although no weight loss either.

However I have started a new Beginning today. New Beginning because I have had my first therapy session. God know I need it :) This one is CBT or Cognitive Behaviour Therapy, and is supposed to teach new ways of thinking and trying to bannish the onslought of negative thought and deal with emotions in new ways. Twas rather an emotional session, and poor chap, must be sick and tired of seeing people sob every day! So since March I have sobbed umpteen times at doctor's tis now the therapist's turn to listen to my woes. 12 weeks of fun for him then. And another few months of fun for GP too who is keeping me on "happy pills" for another few months. Quite frankly, I am beyond caring who knows know, as long as my parents don't find out the rest of the world can be made aware, for I am no longer ashamed of my feelings. Ashamed of other things such as my weight, my attitude, my tendency to sometimes interrupt people, but that latter is about "putting up a front" really and trully.

Anyway, about this CBT business, it sounds quite good actually, and from now on KEEPING A DIARY is "de rigueur" I have been told. so I now possess a lovely new note book (three actually, as I need to do this forever apparently, Mr Therapist has been keeping his for 20 years) and will now start keeping tab of emotions etc.... And new pen to go with it (fascinating, I know, sorry to bore you) which is MINE!! not my hubby's and not my children, I shall guard this one with my life!!

Looking forward to a few things this month: going back to aerobic classes next week, meeting up with friends tomorrow (all fellow froggies) and of course sessions with Mr Therapist. I need to find a suitable name for him . I shall cogitate and ponder over what nickname I shall give him.

Well, in 12 weeks I should be a new person, mentally at least, so I should really now take next step and post picture of my ugly mug on this blog and post one every few months to see if physical changes also happen.

A bientot! xx

2nd blog, haven't quite got hang of this yet!

Well, my blog page doesn't yet look too exciting, it has to be said, but I am patiently waiting for september when I can be taught the art of blogging and the art of adding tabs, sections and photos, by my friendly computer wizz sylvie, albeit in exchange for a bottle of wine or three. A bit demanding of her don't you think ? :)
Not much to announce today except for the fact that my parents have left to go home after spending 6 days with us. 1st four days were great and then last two a bit of a mare! I will no doubt mention them again over coming months and rant a bit I am afraid: as much as I love them they drive me nuts with their constant vile arguing, and their judgement of the way I run my life. Shouldn't care, should I, after all I am happily married, and have two fabulous children, but  no matter how old you are, seeing parents at each other's throat is not exactly healthy for one's emotional wellbeing. Good news is though, I didn't pig out!! I would normally run for the local shop and but loads of biscuits and chocolate and stuff myself "just to show them", even though i am eating behind their back, but this time managed to reason with myself that the only person I would be hurting would be me. So good day, and not pigging out, yeah!!!!

Now, let's see if I can work out how to improve this site without the help of Mrs D. so I don't need to share my wine. Oh what rotten luck, I am on a diet so I suppose I should share with her and get proper turoring, Never mind :)

1st ever blog, at the grand old age of 39!!

Well, here goes, learning to blog, thanks to the encouragement of the lovely people at fuelmyblog. never blogged before, but do intend on doing this for a while now!

So why now?? well, only a few months till I turn the big 40!! and determined to be the year of turning healthy and fit, both physically and mentally. would love to, and need to, shift 100 lbs, that is nearly 50kg! Yep, you heard it right, a huge amount to shift, and no, I don't intend to loose that in only three months, but I know it can be done in 12 months, so the idea is: by the time my 41st birthday comes round I will no longer be FAT. Yep, not a nice word, but it has to be used if I want to be honnest.

anyway, I will blog properly tomorrow, give more details tomorrow, but goodnight for now fellow bloggers