Thursday, 29 March 2012

about mindfulness, awareness, pleasant shadows, observations etc..

On Monday the sun was shining, so I decided to finish the amazingly inspiring book The Mindful Way Through Depression lying flat out on my stomach on the children's trampoline, soaking in the sun, the warmth, the breeze, and listening to the chirping of the birds. And lying there after a while I put the finished book down and just try and be aware of my surroundings. Still lying flat on my stomach I lay my head on the trampoline "bouncy bit" and looked through it, just staring at the grass beneath it. The trampoline was casting a shadow of the ground, but, to my amazement, amongst the shadow was another shadow. Somehow, with the help of the full sun, one single leaf of one single weed was casting an ever darker shadow on the light dark on cast by the trampoline. And that got me thinking. As shadows are only there when the sun shine, maybe, just maybe, there really is always hope out there. The fact that even amongst darkness, the sun was  powerful enough to cast another shadow was a metaphorical proof that no matter how dark a situation may seem, there is a light out there. Maybe that light is hidden and you need to search for it, maybe it appears out of nowhere. But that one silly leaf of that silly weed made me smile, made my day, made me hopeful.

And so the next part of recovery begins. Begins with long walks along a river in company of an inspirational friends. And begins also with putting into practise the exercises mentioned in the book.

Today is day 3 of week 1 of an 8 week "course". Each week is slightly different, each week has different tasks. this week's tasks are: 1-Body Scan: a 30 mn session of listening to a CD, lying on a yoga mat, and getting to be aware of your body, of your toes, fingers, ankles, ears etc..... 2-Mindfulness in daily living: just being aware of the little mundane things in life. Paying more attention to brushing your teeth, or making yourself a cup of tea, making lunch etc... just taking everything in.

One of the leitmotifs of the book is "Being, not doing". Hard to explain, but basically trying not to do everything mindlessly but mindfully.

Fascinating stuff, really is. Will update with progress of the 8 weeks program.

Loving Spring, helps to have warmth, blue sky and sun surrounding you. But not a necessity.

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